Christmas is the beautiful time of the season full of joy, lights, decorations, baking and presents but also can be the hardest time of the year to celebrate because of the broken relationship, death, broken promises and missing someone you love.
I am experiencing it right now and I don’t feel like putting up the Christmas tree and decorate my house like I used to. As my children get older and they are spreading their wings, being with their friends are more fun than being with family. I got the taste of what my life will be once my children are out of the nest and live their own lives.
There is a reason for a season and that is the same with every event in our lives. There is a reason why we are still here. There is a reason for the broken relationship and broken promises. Sometimes, we can’t see what lies ahead of us because we only can see the hurt at the moment. Holiday season just makes it harder to go through the day.
I realize I have a choice to make because time keeps moving forward and I can’t be stuck in the time zone of the past, or waiting for the broken promise or mourning of the deaths and broken relationship. Because life doesn’t wait for me. I either move on with the time and get on with my life or I will be left out and let life goes by me.
So, I decided today that I won’t let any circumstances in my life to hold me back to enjoy my life. So, I took out my Christmas tree and I put it up and I will decorate my house as the day goes til Christmas. I also going to bake some cookies and enjoy the hustle and bustle of the holidays. After all, life is worth living and there is a brighter future ahead of us 🙂
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 🙂
I experienced the same thing last year, because I was mad at the world so to speak but this last year I really tried hard to have a spiritual walk and leave the things alone that I can’t change and let God work them out. It’s not easy my friend but the end results is worth it. I know you miss your mom very much, I wish you were closer I would share my mom with you…she would love you and you would her. Im glad you put your tree up and getting into the season, but the reason is the season all the other is stuff to make us feel good ( which it should ) and yes your childern are growing and living their own lives, thats what you wanted them to do but you dont realize that until the time comes and their out living their lives without you. You will have to reinvent a different kind of christmas, god will reveal that to you just dont get discouraged because you are loved by so many and someday you will have a house full of new inlaws and grandchildern…:)….Keep your chin up and keep smiling…:)…love you…:)
Cindy Heath…lol!!!!!!!…..sorry didnt leave my name…:)
Yep.. either it was the tiredness from working hard that I felt I didn’t have energy for Christmas. I was pretty down but I perked up and Christmas is wonderful and full of miracles 🙂 by the way, I still believe in Christmas magic.